LivingTodayInThePresent

My totally crappy week finally comes to an end– and it’s with me having a rather severe asthma attack.

I honestly can’t remember the last time I had the "wheezing", the coughing, the clogged sinuses, it’s been that long since I was at the mercy of my childhood illness. But here I am now, fighting to draw a breath without coughing in anybody’s face.

I recently got an email from a college professor, at the end of her email, it was written down, "Dream as if you’ll live forever. Live as if you’ll die today." And the quote struck me like a lightning bolt. I haven’t had many dreams as of late (except work oriented nightmares) but what I also realized is that I stopped being an optimist. I stopped dreaming. I stopped making plans and focused only on the bottomline. And I think that’s what affected me the most. I was so focused on achieving I forgot to believe. I lived only through my work and not through my personal growth and happiness.

But with this realization, maybe now I can slow down. Not expect too much from myself. Not demand things which are quite beyond my control. Maybe now I can try living each day as if its my last. Maybe now I can stop and savor every time I draw a breath.

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