It’s Complicated
Before I go off on my "It’s Complicated" post, I would also like to invite everyone to check out this anime blog, here’s the link: http://otakushrine.wordpress.com. As you all know, I an extremely addicted to anime, more so now that I have so much free time on weekends that I get to go on straight anime marathons. I have also found a partner for this "otaku shrine"– Michiko and we would just like to post that our blog is up and running, it’s fairly new, not even 10 posts but we already have 500+ views! Pinoy otakus welcome! Ja matta ne!
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I can’t think of a good way to describe last weekend except as the infamous and very showbiz line, "It’s complicated." And certainly it is.
I’m probably stressing over nothing, I’m probably also stressing over nothing to not think about anything, I’m probably stressing on what seems to be nothing but could be something, I’m probably stressing over something that I think is nothing but may turn out to be a completely new thing! See my train of thought? Totally whacked out!
I’m not even sure I can articulate the events happening and unfolding in my life– every day is a surprise, a discovery, I really think I’m much stronger now in the aftermath of what could have been a 9/11 disaster only thing is, it happened on a much earlier date. I guess it’s just disorienting that my life has taken several unpredictable turns, I’m not exactly happy about it, but what else can I do? I guess the neatly arranged years I’ve planned would have to fly out the window but as my friends say, "Be your own priority." And now I am. Of course, I still get occasionally choked up when I think about the past but I’m trying to put it where it should be– in the past. After all, I did get kicked to the curb over work.
Right now–I’m pretty much okay, I did tell my parents about it, I had time to grieve over choices made and yes, I finally did accept the fact that there are just some things I can’t change. Whatever power I have is the fact that I can just change myself.
So this "it’s complicated" line, I gladly welcome it. It’s a nice distraction while I pick up the pieces and hopefully, move on. So hooray for friends, anime and DC graphic novels!
